I have had so much on my mind lately that I feel like my blog is a great place to unload some of it. I find myself being afraid to talk about my struggles. Afraid to appear weak. Afraid to appear like I can't handle the things that are mine to handle like potty training and sick kids up all night coughing.Why you ask am I afraid? Well to act like you are not afraid would just be proving my next point. I was watching a reality TV show against my better judgement the other day really to just have some background noise and I found myself getting so disturbed at these catty women who talk nice to each others faces and then go behind each others backs to exploit the struggles of the other women as if they themselves had perfect lives. Well here is the reality that they need in their TV show. WE ALL HAVE CRAPPY MOMENTS. We all get knocked on our knees.We all have heart aches and trials. Why as women do we not love each other more and ourselves for Pete sakes? If we know how it feels to feel in secure about our appearance or our talents or our marriages or whatever it may be why do not empathize more instead of criticize? I find myself trying to hide my struggles instead of letting them air out in the wind because of the way I myself have criticized and heard criticism from other women. I am thankful that I watched that dumb show which I will never waste my time watching again because I have turned over a new leaf. I am vowing to be less critical of you and myself. I hope that as a woman I can look at someone else who bugs me, get's under my skin, doesn't' do things they way I like or the way I think it should get done, or has hurt me, and think you have struggles as well. There is something that troubles you. Maybe not today, but it may come up tomorrow. I hope that I can teach my two girls that true beauty is what we place in our hearts and allow to make a home there. True beauty is what we let slip of our tongues to other people. True beauty is letting other people have weaknesses and not talking about them as if you have none. True beauty is owning up to our own weaknesses and not be afraid of what others may say. Thanks for letting me vent a little. Man that stupid show got me all sorts of worked up.